Thursday, December 10, 2009
I thought I had made my transition from last job to my current job the right way. I figured if I got a new opportunity that it would just be the right situation for me…but I was wrong. Now I’ve got these “fears” (I’m beginning to hate the word “fear”):
What if I hate my next job too?
What if I am one of those people who’s just a frickin’ complainer?
What if I NEVER find a job that I’d like to do AND that will actually pay a living wage (and I do mean a NYC-living-I-can-pay-my-student-loans-and-afford-a-mortgage-and-occasionally-satisfy-my-J.Crew-shopping-cravings-wage)?
I’m not gonna spend this post completely beating myself up about my job decision and completely giving over to my fear. I WILL admit what I did wrong to you (which I hate because it makes me look dumb). I could have made my decision about my current job in a much better way. First and foremost, I could have asked the right questions. DUH!!! Sometimes the obvious things that we need to do really aren’t. I wish I’d have asked questions about my boss’ management style, what she wanted out of her underlings (me), yadda, yadda, yadda. Do bosses even want to answer questions about their management style and philosophy? I think they should. (If any of you readers are bosses, I’d love to hear from you about this). Heck, I could have even asked questions about what I was going to ACTUALLY going to be working on (the topics not the job responsibilities...I do occasionally know what I am doing). I also did ask some of these questions, but I didn’t follow up and push to really get the answers that I needed. I just figured that it would all work itself out. Clearly. Not.
I need to work on this phrase that I TRY (although obviously not very well) to live by: I am where I am supposed to be when I am supposed to be there. Maybe that's a way to rebuild my trust with myself.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
I have a lot on my mind and one of the biggest being whether or not I should quit my job. Yes, I just wrote that. Yes, I know that we’re in the worst recession since the Great Depression and that many people are clamoring for a job right now. I work in government, so I know how bad the economy is (It's bad, my people). Yes, you're never supposed to leave a job without having another lined up. I know all of the job "rules." I am still talkin' “crazy,” and I really don't care how irrational it may sound.
1. I will have a job and income until July or October
1. I will spend another year doing something that I am uninterested topically/not moving forward. I feel like I am wasting my time.
2. It looks good to have two years (or close to two years) on the job for the resume. Employers will not ask as many questions.
2. If Jim (my husband and not his real name) and I are thinking about trying to have kids at some point in the next couple of years, I want to be established in a new job before we do so.
1. I will have full time to look for what I want to do. Possibly take courses, etc.
1. We will have considerably less income or savings coming in
2. I will not have to live somewhere else/travel for a half year
2. With this economy no idea how long it will take me to get another job
3. I will not have to deal with Boss Lady and this stupid department
3. Depending on how long it takes to find a job, I will need to explain to prospective employers about only being at my job for 14 months.